Saedee's Dance Performance & Fun!

Happy Father's Day~2013

Father's Day has always been an extremely difficult day for me. I am learning to let go of that & learning today has enough joy & happiness & I don't have to live in that sorrow anymore.

I have raised my older two children to love their Father's despite their differences & the relationship they choose to have with their children is up to them at some point. That I am not responsible for.

Having only had my Father for 3 years I relied solely on my Brother for male influence in my life & I believe given the tools he had to work with he did a pretty great job. He is an amazing Man & I am proud of him & grateful.

I am grateful Saedee's Daddy is just as much of a big kid as she is little & I love watching them play & their laughter & joy & love. He is responsible & a Man of God I am so Blessed.

I am grateful for My Father in law & his strong character & grace. He has blessed my life immensely. He has taught me allot about what a Father is.

My Heavenly Father that I so treasure our relationship & the ways I am learning to lean on him, depend on him & seek him in all things. That relationship that is a constant part of my daily life & I realize he has always been there & brought the people I need in my life just as I need them. He had never walked away & if our relationship changes it's because he allows me the choice to go where I need to grow & find me, it always leads me back to him. My Heavenly Father.

If Father's Day is a tough day for you, I pray you find peace with your past to have the joy waiting for you today.

IX One Day At A Time

I feel so overwhelmed with joy this evening as I got to be a part of where my husbands recovery journey began.

I am so proud of him, I know he has over come much & it blesses my heart that we are on this journey together.

In day to day life we each take so much for granted, tonight reminded me of the simplicity of where we begin & how we must never forget our journey.

The people at Plummer street are amazing and so kind and loving. What a blessing! Feeling all kinds of Grateful & Gods never ending love and blessings.

Summer 2013

Motherhood...

I love being a Mom.

I have spent the day cooking each meal, dishes of 3 meals & happy tummy's of each meal.

I have spent time with my kids at the pool. Daughter endured a bee sting. Not a good part of our day.

I am exhausted!

  I am now baking cookies for tomorrow's trip to the beach! 

I wouldn't have it any other way.

In listening to my Son describe his home life with his Dad, I have a new appreciation for my life.

 O we don't live in a great big house as they do., however here's what I learned today; there's more laughter in our home. We aren't too stressed & act silly together. We enjoy life. Every meal isn't drive through. I take time out to discuss my hopes & dreams & prayers for him, but not my demand on how his life should be.

I wouldn't trade that for a house. For newer cars. 

I wouldn't trade getting up in the middle of the night going to turn off the lights in the kitchen to see my Son looking for a snack & with one eye open prepare him food. 

This is Motherhood., this is my life & I wouldn't want it any other way. 

He said I'm not normal & I'm okay with that.

I stuggle allot with my anxieties & social issues, but I get to show up today. Show up for Motherhood. 

One day each of my children will be living their own lives & I will miss days like today, allot of times I do already because 1 is grown & 1 isn't here all the time., but 

today I get to cherish the moments of being their Mom.

I got I listen to his new girlfriends Mom tell me about their Christian values, beliefs & what she wants for her daughter, I consider that a Blessing & almost a Miracle as I don't get to influence my Son's beliefs as I would like, but look at the kind of girl he is choosing. So obviously my teachings, God is honoring. What a BLESSING!!

I got to hear how my Son is a gentleman & respectful to their Daughter. I got to hear how he has come out of his shy shell & has a nickname with her Mom. Spunky... That's my Son!

I am grateful for his Father that he has done well with our Son, I am also grateful I have impacted him more than I thought. 

You never know when a miracle is happening. I learned today, don't be so caught up in your mistakes to miss them!

Looking forward to a day with his new girlfriend tomorrow & I've already promised I won't embarrass him as I so freely got to do with my Oldest. 

Thank You God for Motherhood. I pray the journey has many more chapters.